Haven't managed to get to the pc all week, too many shifts to fit in online before dying quietly in bed. meant to write a few words last sunday, Valentine's Day, but that was just too much of a fiasco to want to relive it all over again. Then work this week proved to be one long complaint by the people who hadnt had the good sense to move on to other pastures full-time, and then yesterday i woke up and realised that my house was so cold that even the houseplants were dying from hyperthermia...not good really.
felt really blue on thursday though. had taken the day off to catch up with a hundred and one things i keep putting on the proverbial back burner and so decided to bite the bullet and take epix of your gold necklace to send to Christie's. Felt sad and guilty...sad at losing something of yours and guilty because i hadn't made a similiar gesture for Doiney's 21st. i think you would be okay about me selling it, i hope so. it's the only way i can acquire enough money to give Gee a decent cheque for his birthday, an ammount that might help him forge a new path. i've tried to sell Mirage but without success, which is why D. didn't have a big cheque in her card. maybe for her 25th. No way that i can talk about this with the one and only of course, he simply would neither understand nor approve...approve of my gesture that is. makes me feel very alone. alone, not lonely.makes me realise how lonely you must have felt after Ron died. how deep the abyss must have yawned at times. this is all too sad. time for sleep.
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